Girly !

You are usually called cute,sweet,hot or sexy.

but when you are called beautiful, it means a lot.






P.S-girly post :D
P.P.S- do listen "You're beautiful" - james blunt.

The Season..

The raindrops.. the tears..

The jingles.. the kiss..!

The season..is the reason..

For all that i miss !

P.S- just penned and rhymed..!

i hate being a girl !!

untouched.. a blossoming flower she was..

dreaming of high aims.. aspiring heights..she was growing up..just a girl of 16..

she always dreamt of..always thought of future..

"woh hoga to kaisa hoga..ye hoga to aisa hoga ..!"

eyes staring at her made her think a lot.. dirty minds ! she thought ..

but something tickled her always.. a new era ! new thinking ..!

she knew..she was growing up.. and so her level of thinking.

she came through many realities of life..many truths which she was not able to believe..

she always fantasized about things but was afraid to commit..

a dreamer..a writer.. i am.. i love being a girl.. :)

ohh i love it ..

then something touched her..or someone..she could not understand..she was half asleep..

till the time she could know.. it was all finished..!

SHE WAS RAPED ! by her own COUSIN !

she lies down now...crying..looking at herself and saying..

I HATE BEING A GIRL. ! I HATE IT !!!!!!!!!

p.s- i did not know what to write..just penned down !

critics welcomed.

NO MERCY !

The world is not actually what we see..

n the people are not the way they are meant to be..!

People are not really what they show..

the truth is not only what we know..!

People are good to us,but at the back they are different..

their sweetness stays only till the fragrance of a scent..!

They wear fake smiles,they show a different face..

they run for fame and money,they just want to win the race..!

Everybody wants wings,everybody wants to fly..

all want to reach the top,and to go high ..!

Nobody cares nobody fears,they just want to win..

no matter how many they commit sins..!

Brother kills brother,son shoots father..

to gain luxury it can go even farther..!

This is a black-world,where all want to gain..

there is no place for pity, no place for pain..!

The world seems so bright,inside it is dark..

as you go deeper,it eats you like a shark ..!

There is noone to care about the tears that flood..

the world is so dark,it hides the colour of blood..!

If YOU are great,people will bow and respect..

else,this place tags NO MERCY! this is the fact..!

P.S- bit too long..but did not feel like cutting any verse !

P.P.S- Dedicate it to my friend Saumya !

Imperfect .!

i am not perfect.. i am not beautiful.. i am not charming.. i do not have everything.. still..
you chose me.. i don't know why..
you were not the guy i thought of.. the guy i dreamed of.. but i feel, somewhere you are better than anyone else.
everyone cannot be perfect and i understand that thing..
and so i say i am satisfied with you.. yeah.. coz i am!
everyone cannot be the picture perfect typpa person and so i am not and even you are not.. but did i say that to you ? did i ?
then why did you ? everyone is unique in their own.. so i am and so you are .. and so are WE!
i just don't know why do i feel bad.. why this feeling comes like a pain going through my veins.. even when you say that you love me !


and she got in her blanket,.. closing her eyes tried to sleep.





P.S just a silly post.. it is all non-sense.

P.P.S again an old post :)

Conflict of Mind ..

you know what.. i am crazy.. i love you.. but i don't think i am the right girl for you..
i don't think i can always be there to support you.. even though i promise to be, may be the circumstances will not let "me" be "me"..
and that is the reason i want to break up with you..
i just want to throw this thought out of my mind but i can't.
i know it will hurt you and it will hurt me much much more.
i never thought you to be mine.. as i never saw my prince charming in you.. but still there is a strange feeling for you.. a special one ! the way you care for me and understand me. noone does ! most,..the way you love me.. made me love you ! and after that no image mattered ..
but the reason is that i don't think i fit in the frame of your miss right.. being like the girl u wanted..is not in my hand. being like your that classmate.. sorry i can't.. i know you never asked me to be like her.. but still once you told me she is like the ideal girl for you and i don't think i can be "her" because i am "me"..
and the most important reason is that i won't be able to be with you forever.. nor you will be able to, and even you know this thing very well..
and what i wrote above "that is the reason i want to break up with you.." is just written and said.. i don't want to do this.. but i don't know what forces me to think so ..what says i must do so.. i just don't know..! a lot of questions are in my mind and there is noone to answer and stop my conflict of mind..



and she stopped writing, tears rolled down her cheeks ..and she rubbed her hand on her eyes..and closed her diary after mentioning her signature.



p.s just tried to remind old thoughts.. again an old post :)

Abhi nahi aana..

It is a cold breeze blowing,
all the way just water flowing...
In this green garden where people are few,
i am sitting alone.. and thinking of YOU..!


Sometimes being alone is the greatest pleasure.. coz it makes us miss and feel someone's presence around us..
We think, we dream, we imagine..
Closing our eyes we just see them..
Thinking nothing means thinking of them..
Sometimes in the melody of the song we get involved...
Sometimes we imagine ourselves in others.. we relate us with others..
Sometimes missing is better than being together..
Sometimes losing is better than gaining..
Sometimes giving is better than taking..
and..
Sometimes DREAMS are better than REALITY...


P.S.- abhi nahi aana sajna.. mohe thoda marne de.. intzaar karne de..

P.P.S - This was my most loved post-1. which i posted earlier in my old blog.
will b posting more soon :)