Conflict of Mind ..

you know what.. i am crazy.. i love you.. but i don't think i am the right girl for you..
i don't think i can always be there to support you.. even though i promise to be, may be the circumstances will not let "me" be "me"..
and that is the reason i want to break up with you..
i just want to throw this thought out of my mind but i can't.
i know it will hurt you and it will hurt me much much more.
i never thought you to be mine.. as i never saw my prince charming in you.. but still there is a strange feeling for you.. a special one ! the way you care for me and understand me. noone does ! most,..the way you love me.. made me love you ! and after that no image mattered ..
but the reason is that i don't think i fit in the frame of your miss right.. being like the girl u wanted..is not in my hand. being like your that classmate.. sorry i can't.. i know you never asked me to be like her.. but still once you told me she is like the ideal girl for you and i don't think i can be "her" because i am "me"..
and the most important reason is that i won't be able to be with you forever.. nor you will be able to, and even you know this thing very well..
and what i wrote above "that is the reason i want to break up with you.." is just written and said.. i don't want to do this.. but i don't know what forces me to think so ..what says i must do so.. i just don't know..! a lot of questions are in my mind and there is noone to answer and stop my conflict of mind..



and she stopped writing, tears rolled down her cheeks ..and she rubbed her hand on her eyes..and closed her diary after mentioning her signature.



p.s just tried to remind old thoughts.. again an old post :)

Abhi nahi aana..

It is a cold breeze blowing,
all the way just water flowing...
In this green garden where people are few,
i am sitting alone.. and thinking of YOU..!


Sometimes being alone is the greatest pleasure.. coz it makes us miss and feel someone's presence around us..
We think, we dream, we imagine..
Closing our eyes we just see them..
Thinking nothing means thinking of them..
Sometimes in the melody of the song we get involved...
Sometimes we imagine ourselves in others.. we relate us with others..
Sometimes missing is better than being together..
Sometimes losing is better than gaining..
Sometimes giving is better than taking..
and..
Sometimes DREAMS are better than REALITY...


P.S.- abhi nahi aana sajna.. mohe thoda marne de.. intzaar karne de..

P.P.S - This was my most loved post-1. which i posted earlier in my old blog.
will b posting more soon :)

PinkZz is back !

hello guys..
i will b writing again..
n after all you people insisted me 2 do this..
i again own a blog now. :)
thanks to u all.. especially kanu ..
luv u sweety..!

so finaly..! PinkZz.. is back..! :)